I haven't written here in a long time. It's not because I have nothing to say, it's because I always have someone to say it to. Same is true for right now, of course, but I feel like reflecting.
My mind has been on relationships lately, or rather, my lack-there-of. It's been a long time since I've wondered what is wrong with me, thought it might be my fault that no one likes me. Now, and for some time, I realize that there is nothing wrong with me. In fact, I'm a great catch. I'm easy to get along with and am often praised for my sense of humor; my friends love me because I am great to them, and my kids at the Y for the same reason. I have a lot of love in me and it's just dying to get out, find a release, and that's what makes me the most sad. I have so much to offer and I just want to find someone who realizes that, and has something to offer me, too. I am a hopeless romantic, and I suppose it's my fault for waiting to be swept off my feet, but fairy tales must come from some grain of truth, right? Is it so wrong to believe in love so much, especially when there is none right now? Not to say I don't have options, but it's never the right one. Anytime I put energy somewhere, it comes back from somewhere else. Was it something I said?
School starts soon, and I'm feeling my free time slip between my fingers, which is okay at this point. I'm feeling sad lately and spending a lot of time alone in my room. I guess part of me is very ready to start becoming a face in the crowd at Fitchburg State UNIVERSITY.
Damn, how things change when time flies...
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My dear sweet daughter
there is nothing wrong with you. I know how much you have to offer - believe it or not, I have learned so much from you being you. That no man is chopping at the bit to be with you astounds me.
Fairy tales, wishing they come true, fairy tales only wound the heart. But I want one too.
Continue to believe and dream my sweet, loving, wonderful daughter. You are a dream come true for me. MOM
Whatever it is you're looking for you won't find it in your room. Put yourself out there; take a page from Nick's playbook. It will happen when you least expect it. Love you forever, for what it's worth.
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